At this point in my life, I'd also kind of forgotten HOW to paint so I needed an easy subject that I could paint over and over again as I relearned how to "see" the colors and textures and shape relationships.....
This was my first attempt and though you probably can't tell what kind of flower it is; it was during my "Moonflower obsession".....I can definitely see a difference in where I was as an artist at that point. These pieces are much "flatter" than what I do now. I suppose at that time, I was looking to create exact replicas from my references. Not very creative, but I felt it was useful for what my goal was at the time- remembering HOW to paint, create good compositions, and building a body of work.
I think I've come a ways in my color choices- this remains my least favorite of any painting I have EVER done!
In my mind, this Nasturtium piece was where the "lights came back on" for me and I really turned a corner with the quality of my work. I was finally seeing some improvement! Even though, I was still not making progress with creativity at this point- I was getting closer to my goals :)
These two, were a bit "daring" for me at that point in that I started moving away from matching exact color palettes to my references and began using my own color choices whether they were part of the reference or not. It's also where I became a bit more abstract in my comps- less concerned with the flower being recognizable as what KIND of flower it was and more interested in the shapes, colors and inflections of light.
This is probably my favorite of my flower paintigns. It's also the last flower I did where I was completely inspired to DO a flower as my subject. BUT I was at a loss as to what direction I wanted to move towards. And for me, it's really important to paint on a regular basis, whether I'm inspired or not. So, I kept doing flowers, and more flowers, always waiting for inspiration to lead me where I wanted to be- even though I didn't know where that was!
One of the reasons I joined my Etsy team, Inspiration Avenue was in hopes of being guided towards new areas in my paintings......I was still feeling so uninspired. I knew I wanted to change, but HOW?
This was from an IA challenge, and the first painting that sparked a glimmer of recognition that I was moving in the right direction for me- it felt RIGHT and poured off the brush onto the canvas. I wasn't worried so much about detail- I just knew I wanted light and movement- the suggestion of a garden....
After that, I went back to more flowers, and more flowers......and some MORE flowers- always waiting for another inspiration. Then IA's theme was coffee or tea- something along those lines.....I wanted to do a lady, and I wanted her to have lime green in her face and this reminded me of Matisse's portrarait of his mother which I decided to use as a reference....which led to my "Mocha Mama"
And I knew that THIS is where I want to be as an artist.
I felt like I was finally figuring out how to "spark the muse" And I now know that it won't happen every time. It's important to keep painting and to keep loose. I've come a long way, and still have further to go. But I'm (slowly) getting there, and that gives me a measure of peace :)
So, here's my new painting, I'm not done with her, but I'm VERY happy with her! She was inspired by a Klimt painting, and I tried to follow what I did with Mocha Mama in taking inspiration and then going my own direction.......
So there you have it- I really didn't plan to write a novella this morning, it just kind of poured out. So if you've stayed with me for this long, I must thank you for your patience and promise that my next posting will be more along the lines of "short and sweet"!
Have a bright and beautiful day!
Stephanie
