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Thursday, July 7, 2011

I'm still here!

Sorry I've been MIA for so long.....it's been a roller coaster ride of a life the last several weeks!  I find it really hard to strike a balance between being personal on my blog and not getting too personal, so I didn't want to write about this until I knew what I was dealing with.  To make a long story short; two and a half weeks ago, I found a (painful) lump in one of my breasts and went to the doctor who sent me for a mammogram and sonograms which led to a visit with a surgeon who ordered a biopsy- last week was a whirlwind of in and out of various doctor's offices and the word "cancer" was thrown into more conversations than I like to think about.  Anyway, I didn't want ya'll to have to play the waiting game with me, so I'm writing this now too say that the results came back negative.  We will have to deal with the lump which turned out to be a chronic/acute abscess, but that's nothing compared to what it could have been! 
I think of my friends in blogland as real friends- almost to the level of family, so it seemed important to share this with you even tho' it has nothing to do with art or any of the various ways of creating it.  And I would have shared this earlier, but I just couldn't think of a way to write about it without voicing the many fears I was experiencing while I was going through it.
 I will leave you with a peek into my garden as it was last week - my refuge for when I was trying to stay positive and not be scared and also manage to keep all these worries from my children- one more level of the roller coaster, I expect.
xo
Stephanie


16 comments:

Charlie said...

So glad to hear the news. I can not imagine the fear you were going through. Good luck with getting rid of the abscess. Your garden is as beautiful as ever.
Happy thoughts and hugs from a friend in blog land.

Kathy said...

Aww Stephanie.. am so glad that the news is good.. so hard to be holding that all in by yourself and keeping things going..
Sending lots of energy and hugs..
xx

craftattack said...

Sorry that you have had such a rough time, but glad you have got good news now. Sending lots of hugs and sparkles, Valerie

Heather said...

what a relief...the results were negative. glad you are well. take care and enjoy that beautiful garden of yours!

Netty said...

You must have been through hell and back Stephanie...and there was me thinking you had gone on holiday and run off with a waiter....
So glad your news is positive and you can live a normal life again free from worry. Sending you hugs, Annette x

Pointy Pix said...

Stephanie,i am so glad to hear that it was good news. it must have been horrendous waiting for the results. thank you for sharing this with us-i know what you mean about that fine line between keeping it just about art and letting more personal elements of your life into your blog. i think my online friends probably know more about the little hassles in my life than my actual real life friends these days! this is a big deal though and i feel privileged that you felt able to share. i'm just glad all is ok.

mermaiden said...

indeed, breathe deep and center. you'll find inspiration from this trial.

Carmen said...

So, so glad to read of the positive outcome. I cannot imagine what you've been going through the past couple of weeks but although what you did have was painful, thank goodness it wasn't worse. Wish I could give you a big (gentle) hug right now.

EVA said...

whew... what a relief!! And what a scare! Big hug Stephanie to go through that! So glad it is only an abscess that I hope they will quickly fix for you.

Gardens help alleviate stress, don't they? (At least when they aren't full of weeds and causing stress!)

Pam Tucker said...

Oh, I am so relieved for you! I've been wondering where you were, thinking you were on an extended vacation. I'm glad your wait is over and now you know. Big hug to you!

Bleubeard and Elizabeth said...

The garden looks even better now that we have the results of your biopsy. I know the lump is painful, and must be dealt with, but you said it when you admitted things could have been a LOT worse. Breathing a big sigh of relief here, dear.

Felicia Kramer said...

Big hugs, Stef. I know exactly what you were going through, having been there myself more than once many years ago. I'm so happy for you that it turns out to be good news. Deep sigh of relief ......

Kiki aka Victoria said...

Hello my sweet friend...many hugs and healing sparkles sent your way! I have been thinking of you...and thought id pop in to say hello..and am so glad I did..
Just wanted you to know you are thought of and missed and you always have a bloggy friend just an email away if you need anything!
Hugs and sparkles
Victoria

Fallingladies said...

Like some of the others comments I assumed you were on vacation too. Sorry to hear you were'nt out having fun and relaxing. I've had a few similar scares in the past also, but not exactly like yours. Sooo glad it's not what you feared!

LOvely garden,truly!

artangel said...

I'm so glad all that worry and waiting is over for you sweetie. And sometimes things like this, tough as they are at the time, help give us a richer appreciation of all the things we have to be grateful for.

Your garden is so restful, it must be a lovely place to sit. I feel calmer just looking at it! x

priti.lisa said...

They say pain is good...so glad you are on the up-swing again...I know you can tackle anything, strong girl! Love your garden, Stephanie.
Big Love♥♥♥